They did not ask if you were whole, only where the other lived in your soul. A black man in the dreaming spires. A walking myth for their late-night wires. A creature of strange design. A boundary line. And I know that look. The measuring gaze. The parts that fit. The parts they won't. A Roma woman with Irish blood, standing in mud they call pure. I know the weight of a name that is not your own, a history you carry in your bones, alone. Did you feel the púca's breath? The whisper: You don't belong. You are the chorus. Never the song. Every achievement, a raven's cry. The Badb circling. They want to know if you're really real, if your struggle is holy, or just a deal. They'd follow you to the Otherworld gate, to photograph the bruise, to print the grey. And the pressure, brother, is a dolmen balanced on a bed of bone. To be the best. To be the first. To be the proof. The example. The single seed. The Tuatha Dé Danann taught us to fight. But they also taught us t...
i. you named the thread count of my sheets from the feel of them before you'd opened your eyes you are like that ii. some people love the way they rehearsed it from a script they didn't write in a room that was never theirs you love with the lights on you love having already mapped the room the frequency the exact pitch of a thing before you speak its name there is no performance in it i didn't know where to put my hands iii. and then i did the way you go still when something is exactly right not translating it not performing receiving the direct line from the nerve i learned to wait for that to want nothing until it iv. i have watched you trace the seam in the ceiling plaster where the damp came through last winter and the landlord never fixed v. you arrived not became arrived the person you always were walking in out of the weather sitting down like the room had been waiting it had it had vi. your heart is not a closed room and some people call that reckless some people c...